Live For Today

by GettingFreedom on August 5, 2010

I disappeared again.

Sunday morning we received a call from my mother informing us that my beloved grandmother had lost her {second} battle with cancer.  Our hearts were empty.  My family and I loaded up and began the 8 hour trek to Iowa Monday afternoon.  We arrived at our destination shortly before 1am.

We remembered the life of an amazingly strong and loving woman.  She didn’t have much, but she was always giving.  As we were looking through some of her things, it was evident that she focused on the Finer Things in life.

While we know that her life on Earth is over, we all have a peace that she is whole again, and she is smiling with our Savior in Heaven.

My heart still has regret.

In true Phoebe-form, I procrastinated mailing pictures of Blake.  I just knew that tomorrow was coming, and I would do it then.

But it wasn’t, and I didn’t.

My grandmother-of-many never got to see her youngest grandbaby.

Live for today.  Not tomorrow.

“What will be, will be.” ~Grandma ‘Natta

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Katena dyser August 6, 2010 at 9:15 am

I am so sorry for your loss. My grandmother died recently and my aunt shortly before her. Some of the most important woman in my life. She did not get to meet our newest one as he was not born. But at the time my youngerst two were young. Even though they were very sick we took them to meet them beloved aunt ahd grandmother. Those are some memories I will cherish as you said time awaits no one. I am sorry for your loss and thanks for letting us savor the finer things in life our family.

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Momofthree August 6, 2010 at 9:27 am

I am very sorry for your loss. My grandmother is not doing well right now and you have reminded me that I need to rearrange my to do list once in a while to keep family at the top. A visit to Grandma with the kids is on the list for this weekend.
Our prayers are with you and your family

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JessieLeigh August 6, 2010 at 4:39 pm

Praying for you, Phoebe, and sending hugs your way. Rest-assured, your grandma most certainly sees her youngest grandchild now. :) Because I wanted to wait to tell everyone I was pregnant with our second child, we found ourselves suddenly in the position of standing by my comatose father-in-law’s bedside and whispering the news in his ear. My heart hurts that I didn’t tell him sooner… but I know he knew. Just as I know he watched over that feisty little preemie as she fought for her life in the NICU. :)

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Myra @ My Blessed Life August 6, 2010 at 4:44 pm

Awww, sweetie. I’m praying for you.
xoxo

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Jamie August 6, 2010 at 5:29 pm

Oh Phoebe, I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to lose a grandmother, I lost mine a couple years ago and Micah lost his just two weeks ago. While it is tough for those of us who are still left on this earth, there is such a peace knowing that your loved one is healed and in a much better place. God Bless you and your family!

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Rona August 6, 2010 at 7:37 pm

I like to think that she sees your little one’s face and is smiling from ear to ear.
When our son was born my mother noticed dark coloration on the edge of his ears. She shared with us that he was kissed by an angel. He also looks alot like my father, who passed on years ago.
You were truly blessed to have her in your life and vice versus.

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Mandy August 6, 2010 at 8:00 pm

So sorry for your loss, Phoebe! Just know that your precious grandmother is smiling down on you and your beautiful family now – in perfect health and without pain! {{big hugs}}

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mandi@itscome2this August 6, 2010 at 8:59 pm

Oh Phoebe! I am so sorry!! Lots of hugs & prayers for you during this time.

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Jodz August 7, 2010 at 4:19 am

Im so sorry for your loss. It does get easier with time but your memories and love never leave.

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cherie August 7, 2010 at 6:46 pm

I’m sorry for your loss – at least you know she can see that new grandbaby for sure

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Amy @ MomsToolbox August 8, 2010 at 8:43 pm

Tonight I stopped by to catch up and wow, I am so sorry to read this. But you present a good reminder I needed to hear. I’ve been meaning to swing by all summer. And I missed so much that has been happening with you. I am glad all is going much better with your adorable son. And I am glad you are confident your grandmother IS indeed in heaven.
Hang in there and let the Lord give you a big hug. I am so sorry.

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Sunny August 8, 2010 at 11:01 pm

I am so very sorry for the loss of your Beautiful Grandmother. You, and your Family are in my Thoughts, and Prayers. God Bless all of you.

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